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[29 Dec 2009|04:42pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Christmas Eve and Day were wonderful.  I got a lot of much-needed gift cards to clothing stores and for groceries, so that was very, very helpful.  I also found a new laptop, and we're going to order it tomorrow, God willing.  I have to start brainstorming new names!  I've also been very social this past week, and it's weirding me out.  I'll have like six social engagements completed by the end of this week, and then Saturday is DISNEY WORLDDDDDD!!!!  So effing' excited.  Too bad the weather is only going to be in the 50s.  Ah well.  Not the worst.

Going to Pete's birthday partayyyy and then going shopping with my mom tomorrow for some mother-daughter bonding.

Grad school update: only one more application to send in, and then I am DONE!  And then the waiting begins.  Whee.

Okay, I'm leaving.  Goodbye!

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[19 Dec 2009|04:39pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

So, this may in fact be the first post since I got back from Italy last summer, and for that, I apologize.  Part of the reason is that I kept forgetting my password, and part of me was just too lazy and didn't really have much to discuss.  In short, Italy was life-changing.  The food was wonderful, the sites were breathtaking, and the overall experience was something I wish I could re-live again and again.  I took about 800 pictures, which isn't too shabby, if I must say. ;-)

Then I spent the rest of the summer at Warwick (where else?) where I taught the daily Bible lessons for all the kids and worked with some pretty amazing people.  I got my application for next summer in the mail yesterday and I cannot wait to go back.  Warwick is my second home.

Annnd then I went back to Bonas for my last year, which is now halfway over.  I seriously can't believe that I'm halfway through senior year, and I have to keep telling myself that over and over again.  The semester had its ups and downs...great classes, great weekends for the most part, and only the occasional douchebaggy actions of certain people who are no longer in my life.


I'm also staying single for awhile, since the last guy I dated decided to use me and then hang me out to dry instead of treating me the way I deserved.  So, thanks for that.

I am a stronger person because of this semester, and I am thankful for that.

In better news, I'm on Christmas break and I couldn't be more relieved that the semester is over.  I've applied to two out of my three grad school options, and the last application will hopefully be going out sometime nest week.  I'm also going to DISNEY WORLD in two weeks, which may in fact be the highlight of the century (no, I'm not exaggerating).

So, enjoy the snow, everyone...and thanks for reading this after an embarrassingly long hiatus.  Cheers.

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[01 Jul 2009|08:28pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

So....I'm home?


Italy was amazing.  Took about 700 pictures.  Didn't remember LJ password so I couldn't really update.  Just believe me, it was great.

I go to Warwick on Friday, this time as Christian Ed Director.  Wish me luck...


RIP MJ.

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[18 May 2009|06:25pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Graduation weekend went by in a flash.  Actually, the last week went like that.  Friday night, Bree and I went to the Candlelight Ceremony for the seniors, and just watching them walk down towards Plassmann got me all teary.  I went out into town with Joe on Friday night, which was fun (but not too fun!)  On Saturday morning, I went with Joe to the Honors Ceremony, where he won Ideal Bonaventure Man, which is like the highest honor for a graduating senior.  We had a luncheon afterwards and I got to practice my conversation skillz.  Saturday afternoon was the Baccalaureate Mass, which was pretty good, but I felt distracted so I didn't really catch all it.  Saturday night I went out with Joe's family to The Old Library, which was simply fabulous.  Then Saturday night we just hung out together and watched a movie at the girls' townhouse, which was really nice and relaxing.  Then Sunday came and I helped out at commencement, which surprisingly, I did not shed one tear.  I am so proud of all the graduates...congrats, everyone!  What a wonderful way to celebrate your four years at Bonas.  Joe looked so damn handsome in his cap and gown. :-)  I did check-out on Sunday afternoon, packed my car, and Joe came over and spent one last night with me.

Saying goodbye today was probably one of the hardest things I've ever done.  It would be easier if we had a definite date of when we would see each other again, but we don't have that.  It's hard because I'm leaving for Italy in three days, then I'm going to camp, and then back to school in August.  We don't have time to see each other over the summer, and that makes it so difficult to say goodbye.  But somehow, we said goodbye and drove away from each other.  I have to be brave about it, for both of us.  This summer is going to be very difficult for us, but I have never felt so much love for him as I do right now.  I have hope that we can do this, and I know that Joe does, too.

Sigh.  I'm so tired.  Between now and Thursday, I need to unpack all of my college shit (tonight and tomorrow), run some errands and buy some last minute things (tomorrow and Wednesday), and pack for Italy (tomorrow and Wednesday).  All I want to do is go to sleep.  I am excited for the trip, but my anxiety levels are kind of superceeding that right now.

I miss you so much already.

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[12 May 2009|09:35pm]
Highs:
- finals are finished, and I'm starting to finally appreciate summer approaching
- almost everything is in storage
- good music and good friends

Lows:
- I can only bring 44lbs total of checked baggage to Italy.
- I am slightly fucked because of this
- the shittiness of the goodbyes in the next five days are going to be written in the books for generations to come


At least it's even...


"I dreamt I would be an overnight success...I didn't say which night."
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[09 May 2009|03:30pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

- Article review for CMR (4/21)
- Book review/final paper for Theology (20 pgs - 5/12)
- Presentation for Soc (4/22)
- Book review for Drugs in American Culture (4/28)
- Copies of Latin text for Oleg (May)
- Arabic paper (5/4)
- Arabic final (5/8)
- Soc final (5/9)

- Theology final (5/9)
- CMR final (5/11)
- Drugs in American Culture final (5/5)


What was that?  I'm finished with finals?  Oh, yeah.  That's right.  I am. ;-)

Good job, Liz.  You survived the semester.  Now let's see if you can survive the next week and a half.  Today to congratulate myself on finishing my finals, I went to Walmart and got four pairs of shorts and two adorable bags.  And then I went to Maurice's and got the most beautiful off-white knee-length flowy skirt.  And then I went to Old Navy and very sensibly and self-controllingly got two tank tops.  It was a very productive two hours.  Unfortunately, I can't find a swimsuit that fits me right.  I have a suit for camp, but I was hoping for something cuter for Italy.  I shall look in Victoria's Secret and report back.

Arabic Oral on Monday morning, then I gotta hand in my paper for Christian-Muslim Relations, and then I am seriously done.  Duty tonight.  Not looking forward to that.  Alas, it might be my last weekend duty, so I'll grin and bear it.

Oh, Jesse hold on.

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[07 May 2009|07:11pm]
[ mood | sick ]

- Article review for CMR (4/21)
- Book review/final paper for Theology (20 pgs - 5/12)
- Presentation for Soc (4/22)
- Book review for Drugs in American Culture (4/28)
- Copies of Latin text for Oleg (May)
- Arabic paper (5/4)
- Arabic final (5/8)
- Soc final (5/9)
- Theology final (5/9)
- CMR final (5/11)
- Drugs in American Culture final (5/5)


I have a final tomorrow and a final Saturday and my oral part for Arabic on Monday morning.  I'm so close to being done.  Part of me is dreading the next week and a half.  Part of me thinks that all this anxiety is just killing me and I need to get out of here as soon as possible.  My computer died for a week because of a huge virus, and even though it's fixed for now, I don't think I'm bringing it to Italy because I don't know where I'm going to be able to fit it.  I'm so nervous and stressed about Italy and I'm afraid that I'll just be homesick and miserable the entire time.  What a waste of an experience that would be.  But I know myself and I know that I'll miss home more than I should.  I also talked to Mike today and he was asking me if I was looking at the stuff for the summer.  I'm so stressed right now that even thinking about the summer is making me want to cry.  I know it will be a good experience, but I'm not ready to deal with any of it, yet.

I need to study Arabic.  I'll probably just procrastinate and then watch Grey's and then go to the Late Night Breakfast and get fatter.  I'm really good at doing that.

Eff.

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[02 May 2009|04:19pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

It is profoundly embarrassing to read old journal entries, especially post-freshman year.  I don't know why I was just doing it, but I probably shouldn't do it anymore.  I can look at the entries and see how vulnerable and messy my life was, but have I really changed all that much?  I've learned more and I've learned how to be more assertive, but I don't think I've gained much more confidence, besides my ability to get a date.  And, well, that isn't always the best quality to have.  I want to be able to stand on my own two feet and not rely on others to give me happiness.  Others can contribute to it, but their actions cannot, and will not, dictate how I feel on a day-to-day basis.

Joe and Bree are right.  The only person stopping me from enjoying these last few weeks is me.  I'm going to have fun tonight, even though it won't end in spending the night.  That is disappointing, but it's not up to me to tell someone how to enjoy their weekend.  And to be completely honest, if I want this relationship to last, I have to let go of the control.

Here's to trying a new method, I guess.

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[01 May 2009|09:41pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

- Article review for CMR (4/21)
- Book review/final paper for Theology (20 pgs - 5/12)
- Presentation for Soc (4/22)
- Book review for Drugs in American Culture (4/28)
- Copies of Latin text for Oleg (May)
- Arabic paper (5/4)
- Arabic final (5/8)
- Soc final (5/9)
- Theology final (5/9)
- CMR final (5/11)
- Drugs in American Culture final (5/5)

I write my big-ass Theology paper.  At least that's something positive.  I always pour myself into my academics when everything else in my life is a mess.  I guess that's a good quality to have.

There is virtually nothing I can handle anymore, even when we promised it would be fine.


And don't you dare pick on me for my music selection.  I've perfected the art of wallowing.

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[27 Apr 2009|08:31pm]
[ mood | calm ]

- Article review for CMR (4/21)
- Book review/final paper for Theology (20 pgs - 5/12)
- Presentation for Soc (4/22)
- Book review for Drugs in American Culture (4/28)
- Copies of Latin text for Oleg (May)
- Arabic paper (5/4)
- Arabic final (5/8)
- Soc final (5/9)
- Theology final (5/9)
- CMR final (5/11)
- Drugs in American Culture final (TBA)

Slowly but surely, my friends.  I left school this past weekend and went to Warwick, which was simply marvelous.  I helped out at a youth rally, in which there were nearly 150 middle schoolers and their very strange adult youth leaders.  We played kickball and ultimate frisbee, sang some awesome songs, went hiking, and ate s'mores.  I mean, how else could the weekend have been any better?  Oh yeah, and it was over 80 degrees and sunny all weekend, so my shoulders and face have a nice red tint now.  Tint = painful itchy sunburn that will soon become unattractively peeled.  It was totally worth it because I got to spend the weekend with Bri, and that hasn't happened in quite some time.  There is something unmatchable about sleeping in a cabin with phallic symbols drawn on the bunks in permanent marker.  Sigh.  I adore camp.  We also went to Warwick's 50th Anniversary Dinner/Gala on Sunday night, which was great for like the first two hours, and then dragged on for eternity.  I slept at home last night and drove back to school at 8am today.  Needless to say, I am exhaustified.  I'm on duty in like ten minutes, so I bid thee adieu.

Here's to Week 15...

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[22 Apr 2009|02:08pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Happy Earth Day!  Let's keep it clean and happy, people.  Do it for the future generations.  They won't thank you for it, but I will.

Here's the notorious end-of-the-year to-do list.  Hey, Lisa, I hope you enjoy it:

- Article review for CMR (4/21)
- Book review/final paper for Theology (20 pgs - 5/12)
- Presentation for Soc (4/22)
- Book review for Drugs in American Culture (4/28)
- Copies of Latin text for Oleg (May)
- Arabic final (5/8)
- Soc final (5/9)
- Theology final (5/9)
- CMR final (5/11)
- Drugs in American Culture final (TBA)

That's all the academic crap.  I still have duty for senior week and all that jazz, getting ready for Italy (slowly but surely coming together) and looking over the camp stuff a little bit.  I hope my head doesn't explode.

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[16 Apr 2009|08:47pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

Hello.  Let's list some life pros and cons as of late...

Pros:
- today was absolutely beautiful.  Tomorrow and Saturday are supposed to be in the mid-60s.  Be still my hibernating heart.
- I wrote two papers this week, so that frees up my weekend a little bit more.
- No one is supposed to know this, but my floor won the big cahuna, so everyone gets 50pts. off of their lottery, a 30% discount on anything in the bookstore, and 40 bucks off next year's parking.  Freaking sweet in so many ways.
- I found out today that instead of living in Gardens next year, we got PHASE 1 TOWNHOUSES, which is insanely unlikely.  Two floors, single rooms, two bathrooms, a kitchen, and a living room.  No laundry facilities, but I'm really okay with that.  Yay for sudden strokes of luck!
- I've been exercising very well this week, and it's made me feel healthier, even though it hasn't really done anything...yet.

Cons:

- there are only like two weeks of classes left, and that's really scary.
- I don't know how I'm going to deal with everything that has to get done between now and graduation.
- I'm trying to keep myself composed through all the emotional shit that I'm trying to keep inside, and I'm failing nearly every day.
- Grey's Anatomy is basically never going to be new again, and ER is over forever.  F my superficial, media-enhanced life.

This sounds like the pros are much better than the cons, and this week has been a great week.  But every day that we get closer to the end of the semester is one less day that you're here.  And as much as I pretend to be okay with the fact that we won't talk about it, it's killing me and I'm losing my ability to keep it together.

How can you miss someone who's not even gone yet?

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[13 Apr 2009|05:33pm]
[ mood | indifferent ]

Sorry it's been awhile.  The rest of prom was simply magical in so many ways.  No problems, no drama, just lots of fun and laughter.  My only regret is that it wasn't warmer...but seriously, I'll take anything that's not snow at this point.  I will always remember how great that weekend was. :-)

Went home for Easter break, and literally slept through it.  I got home Wednesday night, went to the Consulate Thursday morning (a thoroughly terrifying, but sucessful experience), and slept through the rest of the weekend.  I was so tired that I missed church on Friday and Saturday.  My parents thought I was starting to show signs of mono, since I was seriously energy-deprived, but I think it was just a weird virus, since I've been awake for ten hours already and I can function.  I did manage to go to an Easter Egg Hunt at Warwick on Friday, where I was promoted from counselor to Christian Education Director for this summer.  Terrified?  Yes.  Excited that I'll get to spend the entire summer in a cabin with Bri and no children?  DEFINITELY.

So now I'm back at school, and I'm avoiding doing work at all costs.  I have to finish an article review for Fr. Michael, but it's not due until Tuesday.  I just got emailed a final paper assignment for Dr. Fodor, and it has to be 20 pages, wtf!  At least it's not due until the last day of finals (May 12), so I have some time.  I also have to do a presentation for Health and Illness, and I haven't really put it together yet.  I have to give it next Wednesday.  Slightly screwed.  Also don't care.  Oh, and one more book review for Drugs in American Culture.  And I have to photocopy 600 pages of Latin text as a little job for the Theology department.  Oh, and I have five finals.

Holy eff.  I hate the final stretch.

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[03 Apr 2009|03:49pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Last night we all hung out in the Skellar for Prom Part One, which was a lot of fun because all of us were together for the first time in who knows how long.  And tonight is the decades dance party at the Premier Athletic Club Banquet Center.  I am a very purple flapper.  I am very excited.  I hope my dress stays up.  I hope I don't sweat too much.  Or drink too much, hah.  And tomorrow night is a formal at The Old Library, which I am really stoked about because I've still never been there.  Black dress for that one.  I am the epitome of class.


This weekend is going to be wonderful...

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[30 Mar 2009|11:04pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I'm feeling much better than I was this time last week.  On Friday morning, I finally went to Health Services and the doctor prescribed my an inhaler, which seriously made all the difference.  When I was younger, I would often get asthmatic-bronchitis, and I knew that it was heading in that direction.  Of course, the nurse was like, "You seem fine to me".  She should have followed me up three flights of stairs and then listened to my lungs...she would have been hummin' a different tune, I'll tell you that much.  Alas, I was feeling much better by Saturday, so thank God for that.  I hadn't been that sick in so long, and I do not wish to repeat it for another year.

Saturday was great because I got a dress at JC Penney's for prom, and instead of $85, it was only $62!!  It's a lovely black dress; simple, but elegant.  I'm getting so excited for prom...much more excited than I was in high school.  Then again, this year I have a date that won't leave the minute we get into the restaurant.  Oh, high school boys.  I also saw Joe's play again on Saturday night, and he did a marvelous job, as per usual.  It's going to be difficult to see the play in the fall without him...I haven't missed one since freshman year.  We'll just tack it onto the growing list of things that will just not be the same.  I'm so glad that rehearsals are over...the smallest amount of free time is now available, and we really need to take everything we can get at this point.

Things are going well, though.  The Lady Bonnies played a great game yesterday and made it to the quarterfinals at the WNIT, which is a first in SBU history, and though they didn't win, I am proud of them and of my school for having made it so far.  Allison also motivated me to study ALL DAY yesterday for my two tests today, but it paid off because I kicked ass on both of them today.  Sometimes it pays to be studious, I guess.

I'm anticipating a pretty good week.  I wasn't on duty tonight, and I won't be on duty on a weekend again until Saturday, April 18th, so that's pretty sweet.  I'm having dinner at my Arabic professor's townhouse tomorrow night...random.  He really loves his students, no lie.  I need to make cookies or something.  Blast my inability to be domestic!  Thursday starts junior prom: Skellar in Bona gear, then Friday is the decades dance party at the Premier Banquet Center (we're being flappers!!), and Saturday is the formal dinner/dance at The Old Library...totally stoked.  And I'm really glad that almost all of my friends are going, because this may be one of the only times we spend together this entire year, and quite possibly next year, too (though hopefully not).

I have written entirely too much.  My apologies.  I hope all is well with all of you, flist!  Be well and soar. :-)

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